i love him. i just love him. every time i see k my heart skips a beat. i'm truly in love with him and i'm tearing apart. he's leaving and i still don't know. that's pretty much what i feel very single day since last week

omg im so annoyed right now! i dont want to study or anything.. just dont :c

hi, hi there :) im back.. again haha
i know no-one reads this but my blog was kind of my diary (which wasn't writen daily actually) but yeah,  ummm so many things have happened that i can't recall all of them...
the most recent event is that i am applying  for UNAM in june 2th or 3th, i don't know the exact day since the registration isn't open yet and i don't know in which of those day i'm presenting my exam. I can't decide between vet school and dentistry. Dentistry is not something that really excited me but it's an option to make sure i get into the university since it's demand is very very high here in mexico, in fact is the best university in mexico and latin america and its PUBLIC, so you can imagine how many people is willing to get in and getting prepared for it. UNAM has 2 types of systems or.. kind of high schools, one is called ENP (Escuela Nacional Preparatoria/National Preparatory School) there's 8 of them in mexico cty and CCH (Colegio de Ciencias y Humanidades / Sciences and Humanities College)-in mexico college is just another way to call "school" its not like where you go to get a degree or something i dont know how to explain myself, my english is really poor and lame- there's around 5 or 6 CCH's in mexico city and students who get to attend any of these 2 high school systems that UNAM manages (to get to any of these two you have to prepare in middle school very well cause everyone in mexico city and near cities want to get in) well, the students that attend any of these 13 or 14 high schools, if they accomplish the points that UNAM asks for, for each career, they get in without presenting the exam... for example, i want to go to med school, if i ha attended any of these schools, i must have had an 8 during my 3 years (high school here consists only in 3 years) well, i would have got into unam without any exam...
I didnt attend any of these because i live in another state, though i could have go.. :/ family issues..

ok, enough "unam" "high school" "exam" blahblah for today.. i have to prepare!!

kisses to you, nonexistent readers
 

so..  i am back and im going to try to make my best here because my english has gotten really bad and i need to improve it. so.. if my text makes no sense or anything, sorry my english... is just crappy since i moved from sonora.

the other day, (i think it was tuesday.. maybe) i was on twitter you know.. tweeting.. when i saw one of the girls i follow, commented on a video of some girl called @yosoyene on twitvid. and i know that this girl who commented (dara) has great taste when it comes to follow people on twitter, so i decided to check that video and, in first place: the girl is beeeautiful, i mean, really prett to me and as she started talking about books, writters, poetry, and how she is a atheist and her way to see marriage and all that.. wow.

and, in that moment i thought: why can't i think that way?
im the type of girl who only sees forefront and im incapable of looking beyond. really. it's a problem that frustrates me very often.

so later tha night i went to bed and spent like 2 hours thinking about that girl. im not a lesbian i just got really overwhelmed and amazed by that beautiful mind of her. i thought how much id like to think that way! she used the more extrange words to explain things she got asked about, but still understandable. just like this book i read. la sombra del viento. extrange words but beautifully understandable. i.. i.. i just want to be like those people.
she studied latinamerican literature at i dont know where and know shes on the contest of a masters in compared literature.. i mean, how amazing is that?
and she talked about this guy @rufianmelancoli and, then again, i thought how i would like to be like those two people. but this is me, im in zero level when it comes to analize, writting, looking beyond and all that kind of.. things and SKILLS

oh. how i wish.

and, that's all for today ill write soon even though i know no one reads me haha
 claudia d.

No me siento feliz en estos momentos.